breathless day

11:38 PM

worked today yet again.
nurma in a very down mood. didn't talk at all for 3 hours!!.
but manage to have her cheerful soul back after her break. haha.
damn!! first was aei hua then was nurma. next who?.

i taught one of the staff, who came from china whom don't understand english that well, some crappy english. it was so hilarious just to hear him pronouncing the words. but yeah! practise made perfect yeah!!. haha. buck up!!..

i bought a puma watch for myself today. 118 best price. wooosh!!.
the first ever watch i bought for myself. gonna cherish it no matter how man.
bought a shirt and a polo tee too. Bossini clothings are intruding my wardrobe!! hahaha.
gonna packed them up one of this day. it is so damn messy!.

i still left my 280, thigh fit black jeans, sling bag, and spectacles to buy!.

i wonder am i going to suffer my months end again. haha.

i realised i cant just stop seeing her. even if i said i can do it. i really cant.
if only i can get out of this. i will eventually wait.

will upload any photos that i got in the next few days , i needed sleep seriously!. haha..

ciaos!.

okie

12:34 AM

today is a damn freaking day.

went to work early in morning. which i slpt only fours hours.
was fine everymoment until the hour before i am supposed to go off.
Stickers went missing!!! and it is a promotion stickers with 10 dollars a piece. i lost 500 of them!!!

500 x 1.6 = 800!!!

i have to pay 800!!!! for some stupid sticker.
blame me on my bluriness. argh.

I feel bad when AeiHua cry . arghh. cant help but to tear with her as well. hahaha.
From a cheerful girl to someone who is crying. imagine.
it was so sad to see people cry. this is the 3rd time she tear infront of me. tsk tsk. i feel so bad too. she tear each time infront of me. haiyo. getting stresses from everywhere. poor girl.

from 5.15 off i stayed at bossini until they close shop hahaha. just to make a police report on some loss of stupid sticker!! arghh!! imagine!!

(at the police station)
police : hi , may i help??
me : hi, i want to make a report.
police : report on ?
me : lost of stuff
police : what stuff??
me : STICKER!!!! (police went bonker.) hahahha!!

crappy yeah. i really don't believe my shop manager giving the idea on reporting the loss of sticker to the police.. so damn freaking funny!! and weird. it is so crapppy!!!..

nevermind about the cases, finding that police post is a headache, went thru forest of cement just to find a police post. walking here and there. touring the whole of clementi. hahaha

reached home and here comes the nagging again. argh

if this continue!! i can be fired!! which i want it!!.. i am getting tired of working!!..

today is my pay day!!. i am announced rich once again!!.. hahaa.. on my own opinion. hohoho.

things to buy.
- Sling bag.
- Shirt.
- bicycle ( maybe)
- 280 ( empire)
- pay bill (hp)
- give ahma
- belt

money left - 0!!!

maybe.. ahhaha

my goal and target for this year and next year .
- learn driving.
- earn alot of money.
- get my design selected.
- be a successful guy.
- get great marks.
- prepare for my future plan.
- find my real special one that will last till married. (hopefully).

My life is so empty now!!. work sleep slack work sleep .
2 weeks later.. study sleep study work sleep work study slack. hahaha
i want so fun and moments in my life!!. someone please create that!.

my blog is getting longer and longer because seriously i have nothing to do!!.. hahaha

realised that seriously, trying to forget someone is hard. maybe time will do it away.


god bless everyone !!
tat!!
ciao!

till next time!!

From maybe to must be.

11:21 PM

the best decision and best way . leave my love for her away..

i cant.

Pace

12:11 AM

Went to my regular shopping centre with guo an.
he wanted to buy formal wear for his presentation.
so we saw this shop tender in the middle of the centre selling this jumpy jumpy creature .
was wondering what i was but when the tender point to that creature and utter some words, it move!!!!


Tender: Sit down!! (the creature sits down)
tender : stand up!! (it stand up)
tender : dance!! (it jumps around.)
tender : sleep!!! ( it drop to the floor.)

so we are wondering how come that little stuff which is smaller than your handphone could understand human word?.

haha guess we found the answer yeah. this guy was sitting beside that little thing and his hand was under his newspaper all the time. not even a second that guy pull out his hand. so we guessed the answer to the unsolved mystery right away. hahaha.. it was a dope!!.. 5 bucks for a remote control thingy. hahaha.

but it was cute anyway, watching that little cute stuff jumping around like some crazy rabbit.. hahahaha.

met shong after that and he was seriously down. didn't see him in this state before, it was once in a very lifetime. hahaha. well misunderstanding can be solved easily. it just need someone to make a move first yeah!.

tomorrow i have to work. argh!.
tired!!!.

seriously lethargy.

The identical emotion.

10:50 PM

realised i have spent my holidays into useless waste.
i could have been improved my drawing or even my presenting skills.
next semester would be hell if i couldn't improve on my presenting. argh.
i spent my first year with horrifying presentation.

realised i have another phobia. or whatever it is. arghh..
when did that effect came from??. argh..

so weel i reached home from work again today. and i was watching tv and taa daa.. i saw this lil electronic stuff that can capture me hahaha so i did something out of it.

stay clear from me.. i am frisky!.



i miss her.

Payment day.

12:24 AM

Below are the pictures that i took when i went to pay my fee =D.. cool isn't it!!..

i was excited to see my new school.. and taaa daaa!!! never dissapoint me.. =D


Looks funky here.



side view of it.



the gap



on our way to admistration office.



the complexity. oh my.



the unfinished business.



while waiting for my turn. this girl from china was scolding or reprimanding her friend on the phone like she is in somekind of supermarket?.. so damn loud lor. then later we found out the office is at the second floor. so there we go.

he and his umbrella.. hahaha



after that went bugis and bossini. haha. Minh wanted to claim his 30 bucks discount. so yeah. i did try some out which i didn't have in clementi.

i love this shirt !.





the white looks plain yeah.

advice.

9:07 PM

This is what i foudn on the net. "how to let go of someone you love"

Love is what makes people different from the world. Love is always blind because when you are in love, you dont see the faults in your mate, you only notice the good things. If you have love you have it all. When you are in love, nobody else matters to you, not their opinions, concerns, or beliefs. When you love someone, and there is no chance, you have to find a way to let go. Nobody said letting go of love is easy, yet it might be one of the easiest things to do? One way to release this person from the grasp of your heart is to see other people. Try focusing on another person and it will make this process a lot easier. In between these happenings you will feel the desire to weep and mourn for them. If you have their phone number in your celluar device, do your self a favor and erase it. Letting go of love will be better if you dont have a way of contacting them. Start doing things you like to do, just to get your mind off he/she. Embrace your true happiness. Dont sit around listening to love songs and hide yourself in a dark corner in your room..

Thats what i did and i found out the hard way.. My result was that it took me 2 years to start seeing other people. I never wanted to start meeting new people because i was afraid that i was going to get hurt again. In life, you might have to go through a couple or a few heartbreaks to get to that specail ONE. Love can be good or bad. Love is good when you feel you can fly and when you see them outside or after work, etc. all you see is them, you dont see the surroundings. When you are in love, you will feel the power and grasp it has over you. When love goes bad, it may be the most horrible feeling god has ever put upon you.. You may feel like you cant go on, or maybe you feel locked up and you cry all the time thinking of things you could have did it make it right again. Or maybe you sit around weeping thinking of how it could be if you were still together with him/her.

Love is not always predictable. Do what feels right in your heart and open up to other people like they were your first. Believe me, nobody and i mean nobody, can replace your first love.. NOBODY.. Its ok to weep, but in the end you have to find a way to forgive and forget. It is ok to feel sorry for yourself but you cant be stuck on that person forever. Sometimes love takes time to heal when your hurting so much. Sometimes you are so blinded that it makes it harder to let go. Always remember this: When you like/ love somebody, there is always somebody who is crying and dreaming over you.. Dont ever feel like you will never be liked because i can gaurentee you that other people will come. Just you have to let go and forgive them for the damage they caused and move on. There is always somebody out there for you, no matter where they may be. Love will find you again and again and again until you find a keeper. Love is never free.. in fact, it can sometimes cost your life... Blessed Be...






haha. that is what i always be. advice from yahoo.
i will try. but i know its going to be hard. coz i guessed i will never find someone else better than her. she is my perfect. haiz.

bulleting. boring.

8:42 PM

1. How are you feeling today?
- Extremely down.

2. Where did you go yesterday?
- work.

3. Who do you miss badly?
- who else.

4. What are you doing now?
- waiting for her reply. but it don't seem to be coming.

5. Honestly, are you a racist?
- okie la.

6. Do you like rock/hardcore music?
- nope. no preference

7. What's your hobby?
- Dancing, basketball.

8. Where do you wanna go right now?
- out to clear my feelings.

9. What do you see in life?
- no future.

10. If you could do anything that's
without punishment, what would you do?
- swear to god.

11. Do you follow the law?
-ok only.

12. Are you considered as a happy
person?
-never will be.

13. Where are your parents?
- =(. at their home.

14. Do you smoke alot?
- nope. not even one.

15. Do you drink alot?
- i have allergy. hah

16. What do you think about
cats/kittens?
- small?

17. Do you still watch Barney?
- nope. no where to be found le.

18. Anyone who has inspired you in any
ways?
- yeap.

19. Do you like being in school?
- yeap. occupy my time.

20. Are you anti-social?
- probably.

21. Do you trust your friends easily?
- i think so?. that lead to some stupid stuff.

22. Ever betrayed the person you cared
the most?
- i betray myself.

23. What's on your mind right now?
-all everything about her.

24. Rain, sun or windy?
- rain

25. Are you in love?
- yes. but one way.

26. What's your sister doing?
- home ?

27. Ever been to a dog show?
- nope.

28. Do you eat pork?
- ya.

29. Ever gotten Dengue Fever?
- nah.

30. If you can have 1 super power,
what would it be?
- her to be happier and stay cheerful.

31. Where do you study? And do you
like it?
- Lasalle. yeap.

32. Anything that's bothering you
right now?
- restriction.

33. Ocean, sea, river or swimming pool?
- Ocean

34. Have you ever been to UK?
- nope.

35. What surprises you?
- nothing.

36. What time is it now?
- 8.39pm

37. Are you home-sick?
- never.

38. Do you wanna go out and shop?
- go out and shout!

39. What do you hate the most?
- myself.

40. Remember the past?
- i have no past.

today went to lasalle new campus to make payment for my school fee.
damn nice la the building. cant wait to start school.
when i came back everything every stuff came back.
couldn't stop thinking .
i couldn't smile my true self anymore.

peace

Friend test??

12:07 AM

Well i have seen so many people coming up with this whatever test so why not be part of it.. hahaha..

go take my test!!..

Be part of my test!! yeah!!..


Create your own Friend Test here

i really seriously need to be better than what i always have been!.. =)

everythings for her.

piece of regrets down

10:32 PM

i didn't regret anything.

seriously.

hope and pray she will be alright everyday.

and i hope i can give her whatever i can give.

and just seeing her will makes my days.

i have drop the stone in my heart..

but sadly.. it drops to no use. =D

bulleting.

9:50 PM

Worked today. damn boring.

after that heard she went to doctor.

shocked.

hope she will be alright !!. =)

a bulleting for casual . -D
---------------------------
STUFFS about Jeff

Starting Time: 9.51
Name: Jeffrey.
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 9
What are u wearing?: t-shirt and short
Favorite Number: 11
Favorite Drink: green tea and china apple.
Favorite Month: july?
Breakfast: duh.

****
Have You Ever Broken a bone: nope.
Been on a boat: yeah.
Came close to dying: maybe?
Fallen asleep in school: yeap
Broken someone's heart: nah. no people allow me to break before.
Cried when someone died: dont know.
Fell off your chair: yeah.
Sat by the phone?: ya
Saved emails?: ya
Been cheated on: alot.
Cheated on someone: maybe?
Cheated on a test: alot.

---What is---
Your room like?: messed up
What's right beside you?: my shades, speaker and lots of disc?
What is the last thing you ate?: rice.

---Ever Had---
Chicken pox: ya
Sore throat: Ya
Stitches: ya.
Broken nose: No

---Do You---
Like picnics?: maybe.
Like School?: yeah

---Questions---
Who was the last person you danced with: Ben?
Who makes you smile: just her.

---Who---
Did you last yell at: customer?
Do you like yourself: not at all. i don't want to be emotional.

---Final Questions---
What are you listening to right now: scissor sister. i don't feel like dancing.
Hated someone in your family? maybe??
What car do you wish to have? i want a sleek and simple car.
Can you sing? i think so
Diamond or pearl? diamond
Indoors or outdoors: both. outdoos prefably.

---Today did you---
1. Talk to someone you like? yeah
2. Who? auntie.
3. Get sick? flu?.
4. Sing? no.
5. Talked to an ex: nah..
6. Miss someone: definitely.

---Last person who---
7. Was in your bed besides you: my soul. haha
8. Talked to on the phone? nobody.
9. Made you cry? her?
10. Tingintgitng. dolek do lek dleok
11. You went to the mall with: her?
12. Been to Europe: nope
13. Been to Asia: yeap. every seconds ago.+
14. Been to Russia: No.
18. Been to Mexico: No.
19. Been to Canada: No.
20. Been to U.S.: yeap. pri 6.

---Random---
21. Do you like someone at the moment: definitely
22. What books are you reading right now? u cant believe it .. its thesaurus!!
23. Best feeling in the world: happy.
24. Future kids names: bossini kids.. hahah *first thoughts.
25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: my cousins pooh bear beside ?? ghahaa

Time finished : 10.03 pm

surprise!!

11:58 PM

i never felt so deep in love before.

and seriously your single smiles can really makes my day ..

if only.

Do it!!!!.

7:19 PM

I must do it before i regret my whole life!!!

I must!!..

even if i am afraid to do it!..


for her!!.

god bless!!

helpless

11:46 PM

lets start with a question.

what will you do, if u see someone you care , cry?.

1. hug her?
2. joke to her?
3. saiyang her?
4 or even tease her?.

well. this question start popped up my mind suddenly.

will i do nothing and idle around if i encountered one?.

but if said is for free. and if i could. i would definitely try my whole out to see her smile again.

last but not least. am i capable of taking care and being the one that she can likes to the end?. i am afraid it does not. i aint no good guy.

i am sop perplex!! should i or should i not. if i should then i will be doing the wrong thing. if i shouldn't then i will be letting myself down.

i don't wanna lose anyone no more!.

cheers!!

11:29 PM

for the first time since last few days. i finally smiled.

=)

its all because of her wonders. her smile.

it makes my day totally.

for once. and final. and i hope!. she is the first and the last.

No matter what. I will never quit!.

so ciao!!

Midnights

1:27 AM

Just simply love midnights.

they tend to carry my sorrows away.

but when its day time. they would be back.

can just someone take my sorrow away??

Just got home from a session with mr shong and mr bang.

had a great time pouring out all my stuff.
even though its just some things.

should I?? or should i not.

cheers!!

Tire from Tired

7:53 PM

argh. too tired from work.

woke up early to go work.
couldn't stay awake.

tomorrow will be sian day hohoho.
i have nth for tomorrow..

anyone or anything want date me out??. haha =D

i am thinking of her every now and then.
demure!!

=)

10:25 PM

the feeling is too intense.

i just want a break out!.

my feel for the day is heavy.

i just need someone to talk to.. seriously.

every single minutes i don't feel the way i want.

my mind is not focused. i am just confused!

did i did the wrong thing?.. someone just sound me out alright! ..

argh

went out to sport in the evening. it have been some times since i have touched a basketball. haa

however didn't have any spirit to chase me on .

damn it.

Confused

11:27 PM

my dearest blog,

can you tell me whether did i fell in love with someone i shouldn't be ?. did i fall in love with someone that i cannot fell in love with ?. did i fell in love with someone that already have someone better??.

the restriction is too great for me. her first sight have already taken my soul away. . so what should i really do??

her slightest smile=) will make my day . n its damn true.

diary. please tell me what should i do?. i don't want to be in this bad situation. but i also don't want to stop thinking of her even more. what should i do??..

all i can do now is be nice to her every single bits. =)

i am so confused.

12:05 AM

went work today early morning.

damn tired.

Minh came with all his family .. haha finally get to see my oversea friend.

went Toa Payoh after work. damn fun and interesting. haha =D

now blogging so later will be watching "28 weeks" later hoho!! -=D..

ciao!!

Singing

12:13 AM

nice song to share with you guys.

4 in the morning.

Wakin up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it's say
I guess I feel alright
But it hurts when I think,
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I know you're here, in the dark
I'm watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot
And all I know is you've got to give me everything
And nothing as good,
You know I'd give you all of me
I'd give you everything that I am
I'm handin over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning
And the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we're gonna do it come and do it right


All I wanted was to know and say
Don't wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair, how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more
Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your lovin for me
We can't escape the love
With everything that you have

------------------------------------

nice hor.. =D

n the song "mama" from chemical romance. cool!!.

next addictive song - maa n 4 in the morning!!! hos..

11:18 PM

today 15th of july.. 5 days after my birthday..

hwa leong n stead gave me a jigsaw puzzle with frame for my bd present. the moment i open up. wao!!!.. damn nice n cute!! haha.. here it is.. =D



thanx him . nice fellow i must say.

then today went work . afternoon shift.
was sreve serve serve.. when suddenly my break.. hos.. i open my bag n saw tis red packet which i don't remember i have it at all. n i even thought that someone want try to sabo me for stealing. and when i took out. i got surprised!!!.
this is what i saw =D



wah!! i feel damn touched and surpprised lor!!.. everyone got their part in it. hahaha.. Thanx Baron hexin aeihua nurma yvonne jason kheng guan ila!!!.. u guys rox!!!



nice package yeah!!.. geex i am with smile !!

tml full shift.. headache..

haiz

takekare folks..

normal day

12:46 AM

oh yeah.. back from work..

today early morning woke up and slack to afternoon.. have a nap until 3.30pm and met up with shong to have lunch and then went jp then to work. finally get to work with her le. haha still rmb the dong li huo che?? hohos!.. i will get my revenge de!! haha.. i will throw u away!! hehe..

=( there they go again..

peace off...

siansational day

1:38 AM

hohos

hello everyone!!

went work at 12 today.

chatted with the ladyboss at empire game before work. talk about customers bargaining about discount. we get so fed up about talking about this matter. hohos. i just cant stop arguing.. hahaha

went work and start my servicing again. i dragged my dead foot along too. haha
around 4.30pm we started to pray for prosperity n good luck. thou i have helped bless everyone haha i am everyone's angel . for today =D.. haha. imagine standing near a raging fire and under hot dazzling freaking son!!!.. arghh.. got burned couple of times.

Ila last day of work today. won't be working with her anymore. kinda miss her!! hoho. aliyooos ILA!!.. may i bless u =D..

After work went mac to eat with my A.H. and Yvonne.

den straight to home!!..

arghh tiring!!

i wish for everyone to prosper and stay healthy!! yeah!! today i am the angel of everyone!! hahahaha!!

Futt up

12:32 AM

This morning went work n it was supposed to be a peaceful day .. when suddenly this customer came n ruined my day!! arghh.. freaking him .. he wanted to buy a tee shirt and a chino pants. and because currently we are having a sale for chino pants, 2 for 48 bucks and i told him nicely how bout getting another one for 9 bucks more. n suddenly there he goes shouted out n say i forced him to buy,saying we don't know how to do business, hey i was just telling him there is a promotion going on n there it goes. i got a scolding for promoting. i wanted to laugh out man when he cant read the price properly, 39 bucks and he keep going 23, 33, 29, 36, and he persisted that our shop is Giordano!!..hahaha!!!!. arghhh.. den after he goes, i don't know why he came back again and he started his nonsense again.. n i couldn't stand it n quarreled with him.. n tata!! i made a mistake.. that customer wanted to complain to the headquarter. freak him.. i scared i couldn't control again n i just walk far away from him.haiz n deeply very sorry to my i.c. pulling her along also . she gonna be complained becoz of my doings!!.. arghh..

really sorry aeihua!! =(

couldn't get back to my mood after that.

bought new shoe
went to tpy with qy.
i came into another world.
went back n there he goes again
haiz

stressed up !!! not again!!!

Thanks!!

11:40 PM

today wake up early morning to upload some pics into my blog.. hohos..

kind of stressed up, the whole comp went berserk.

went work and i almost fell asleep while working.

AeiHua Shahal Nurma they all gave me a tee for my present yeah!!.. thanks alot to them !!!.. hohos..

my wardrobe is overfilled with tees!!! hahaha, n my bottoms are like so ppathetic few. hahaha

cant wait to quit job!!! hohos

The precious moments

6:15 PM

These are the pictures we whore during the chalet.. enjoy!!

The lasallians


Different group takes


unforgettable nights


ehem.. (this is a poof*)


The ladies


Yeah families photos


wacky cake??


not really know what to do with the cake


so they did this



creamed face



off to the beach!


The Yuhuaians!!


Yuhuaian hos!


fun nights !!!

Lovely Days

11:23 AM

yeah!! just came back from chalet. n i bet to say its was a hell lot fun man!. will upload the pics soon so bear with it yeah!..

we were camwhoring the whole day and night out . so prepare for a hell long picture blog hohoho..

Thanks alot to everyone who came to the bbq and chalet.

million thanx to Buddies:
Shong
Hongtat
GuoAn
HwaLeong
BangHong
Sargunan
Liyi
Ginny
WanPin
Peiyu
LingFei

and The Lasallians:
Minh!
and his two roommates.
melvin
Hockyork

and of coz to everyone for those present yeah, i appreciate that! hos!
a year that i won't forget forever.
kept in my heart and lock in my mind. yeah yeah!!.. fonds memories

stressed..

11:19 PM

I am so stressed!!!..

i just simply getting tired from working ..

all i want is some rest..

tml is chalet and i am not looking forward to it.. why??!..

can anyone juz stressed me down???!

takekare ah jefF

All the life..

10:49 PM

set my clock at 10 am..
woke up at 7.
tried to slp back. i cant
15 min feels like 1 hour.
keep waking up until 11.
Went work at 12
very tired.

nth happen too

i dun live a happy life at all.

takekare to everyone.

counting down

12:13 AM

today is year 2007 july of 4th.. counting down to 6 days. will anyone rmb tat day??..

have morning shift today.
became bossini newest language translator.
left my nets card in shop argh.
acc miss qiao yu to jp. belt
nvr did anyting.
slack
now going to slp

takekare all..

miss

1:05 AM

today full shift at bossini..
i.c. get angry again.. haaz
den afternoon damn crowded.. serve serve serve..
nite shift went to westmall n help out in closing..
saw benjamin all there..
went home n reach home..

today didn't kill someone.. i ren qi hao.. dun sha shen today.. hos!

tired

12:06 AM

woke up in de morning n came online.. chit chat wif mis coincident.. poor gal have to work.. hos.. but tml i have to work full.. argh.. nvm.. went movie wif minh in de afternoon.. watched trasformer .. a damn nice and thrilling movie.. imagine cars that change in front of u.. hos!!!..

tml i am going to kill someone!!>. argh.. haha jokin.. cya

takekare all...